Time for change

Here I stand again. At the crossroads. between the road to my true self and the road to self destruction and complete chaos. How have I got here? Congratulations to me on accomplishing this all by myself. I can choose to point the finger to a number of events such as the death of my father, my surgeries, my unfortunate choices in life, my pathetic distractions, the so called 'friends' I used to have, the weather, the timing, bad luck - you get the picture. I did. I really did blame the lot. But today, I think it's quite clear, even though I knew it all along, yet refused to accept it, the problem lies with me. You come alone, you go alone. Never mind if in the process you lose the closest friends around you, never mind if you end up being a social outcast, never mind if you are later than the rest to achieve in life, never mind the pain and torture - at the end of it all, you know you have chosen wisely to develop yourself from within, than from withOUT. I hate the way I feel. I hate the way I have made the people around me feel. I started out with the best intentions, but I never stopped to believe that I was wrong in trying to achieve what I wanted to, using the methods I have used. Biting the bullet and accepting the truth is hard, no doubt. But a fresh perspective is always needed. It's necessary when you are but a fish in a bowl. When all else fails, I can only look to the source. So here I come. I hope you take me with open arms. I strongly believe change is here to stay.

B.Ganesh's Memoriam in the Law Gazette

The Law Society of Singapore asked us to write about our father for their magazine in August 2011, to publish in October. They also invited us for their Dinner and Dance, where they presented a posthumous award for my Dad's contributions to the Legal community. The award and the article are below.